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  • If you’re ok with some bulk, go for an nvme enclosure. I have a sabrent one with a 256 GB crucial gen 3 drive in it, it’s a slow cheap drive, still substantially better than any usb key and you can put one together for under $100 cad including a longer high speed cable.

    I just did a fresh install off of my usb key and wow, super slow compared to any time I’ve done off my enclosure






  • First and foremost, I don’t know your circumstances but I can relate and I’m sorry. Your worth isn’t measured by “productivity” or “what you amount to”, you matter. Work Culture and general North American society isn’t great for us with ADHD, all we can do is try our best. I swear to you that even when things look dark and there’s no way out, it does end. I’m going to put a ramble of my experience in a spoiler.

    Long ramble of my experience

    My ADHD got me into a pit of credit card debt, small compared to others at just under $19k CAD but I still had $20k+ in my student loan and I couldn’t see a way out, struggled hard, kept deferring payments and hitting overdraft, legit at my worst point I was $20 from bankruptcy, I probably could have got support from family and my at the time girlfriend (now partner) but I was too ashamed of it, I didn’t want to admit it to my partner (and she knew it, I don’t lie well, not that that’s a skill I really want to have). It put a lot of strain on my relationship, made me the most anxious I’ve ever been and very nearly ended my relationship, my life was on the verge of falling apart completely, I’d be lying if I didn’t have the exact same thoughts.

    I was diagnosed 3 years ago at 31, I did what my dad (who’s likely got ADHD if not AuDHD, but won’t get evaluated) did and expended all my energy on work to the detriment of other parts of my life, I also struggled with binging (spending is obvious, but also alcohol and food) and emotional regulation.

    My partner is the reason I got evaluated, she convinced me to get into therapy (I have a good therapist who has ADHD, didn’t know that when I found them). After diagnosis, it took me at least a year to begin accepting that I have ADHD (funny that putting a name to it changes things right), that it effects everything I do and that I have, and will always have it. Hardest thing was realising just his much of my personality is influenced by it. Medication is helpful but it’s not perfect, but with therapy, it’s helped address some of the maladaptive coping mechanisms I developed.

    If you have access to therapy and aren’t already, it helped me immensely. Depending where you live there may be resources you can access through your health authority. We’re here if you want, even just venting can be helpful.




  • Could use Polars, afaik it supports streaming from CSVs too, and frankly the syntax is so much nicer than pandas coming from spark land.

    Do you need to persist? What are you doing with them? A really common pattern for analytics is landing those in something like Parquet, Delta, less frequently seen Avro or ORC and then working right off that. If they don’t change, it’s an option. 100 gigs of CSVs will take some time to write to a database depending on resources, tools, db flavour, tbf writing into a compressed format takes time too, but saves you managing databases (unless you want to, just presenting some alternates)

    Could look at a document db, again, will take time to ingest and index, but definitely another tool, I’ve touched elastic and stood up mongo before, but Solr is around and built on top of lucene which I knew elastic was but apparently so is mongo.

    Edit: searchable? I’d look into a document db, it’s quite literally what they’re meant for, all of those I mentioned are used for enterprise search.






  • I have the belief that ADHD is both over and under diagnosed. If you mask or compensate, even hyperactive or combined get passed off as “quirky behaviour”, loss of structure was massive for a lot of people getting diagnosed during the lockdowns, while I was in that boat too I had already been working towards getting an eval for years.

    Also super annoyed about the hoops we have to jump through to get treatment, feel like I’m a criminal for having my meds and I have to call in a refill every single time I need them, the entire processes to even get diagnosed is almost hostile to ADHD (multiple appointments, evaluations, shit my psych gave me homework)